even if i have so much to say, you won't be there to listen, anymore.

Damn Shiok,


Thanks to everyone for the wishes and Happy Belated Birthday to Yuwei too.
everything happened and passed so fast, i've got to wait for another year for my birthday.
3rd dec, went out at night and cheesecake suprised me. lol. sing k after that.
4th dec, went to school as usual, but late for an hour. :/ celebrated @ tbp after that. dua beh gong! :)
sorry couldn't celebrate w yuwei.

there's some pictures but i'm lazy to post them up. it's on facebook anyway. haha.


i don't want the best.

在第一时间拯救我...

do you even think properly?
ya, it's you.


ya, maybe it's me
giving the impression that i don't really care.

actually, i really do. Do you?




Perhaps it's not like before.
No, i know it's never gonna be like before.

想终止这一切挣扎


cheesecake asked me out on thursday night, wonder what it's up to. O.o

brrrr, check my nostrils.

haha, goodnight.

i think my face is getting big like esther's.

lol, hope she doesn't see this.

goodnight.

就让沉默代替所有回答

Don't try to hide the truth beneath your heart, cause you'll realise how much it hurts.

seems like many things happened in the week.
too lazy to list all out.
lai ang day 2. went to URA today, quite fun.
NAFA test is next week.
i'm watching 2012 with mum on thurs!
ohh and i think PR CA is this week. is it?














i need to sing it out.

at home now. sch ended at 11.30,
i finaly have time to sleep! but i think i'll still need to
go mac and finish some stuffs. argh..

no school tmr. airport?


let go.

that's my only most recent photo. @ NLB

just finish listening to 金曲奖。
and i think 张芸京 got the 优秀新人奖! yeah! lol.
working tmr. bless me.



如果我忘了我，请帮忙记得我。

went to IMM,
got to see zhang yun jing and
got a spongebob from alicia! (you're welcome!)

i know things were'nt the same
and i've got to accept the change.




我想说的都已说完了 其余是秘密

hi i'm pei qi. and i'm anti-social.
hahaha.


you'll only know when you can read my mind.
or you'll never get it.







夜已深，还有什么人，
让你这样醒着数伤痕。

have been playing cafe world.

i think my mum's addicted w cafe world too,

i saw her doing her office work, but i saw cafe world's page at her task bar. lol

tmr is another monopoly day.

i think my head's getting heavy.

对不起，我以为你会开心一点，我以为。

人类如果没有心脏那就好了，

受伤不会流血，

悲伤也不会流泪。

think you know me?
ha, part of it.

i wanna sing again. lol
because i just can't get it off my mind.











你是否曾经迷失了方向？

其实我没有那么的洒脱。

Just came back from PA。
am so hungry now,
having a bad cough :( + flu
there's so much food that i can't eat.
i'm so going to eat many things when i recover.






你是以什么心情唱出那首歌的呢。
受了不少委屈吧。

: 25,26,27 - F1
: 28 - was supposed to work @ heeren but worked M2 shift at store instead.
: 29 - meeting
: 30 - closing
: 1 - closing
: 2 - one day of fun with WET T @ sentosa and vivo.
: 3 - M1
: 4 - today, first time doing closing alone, not bad. wasn't as bad as i thought.

maybe i'd like it this way, when there's not much time to think too much.
maybe it wasn't so bad like how you thought it would be.
maybe we're starting to get used to it.
maybe it wasn't like what you think.
maybe you could be happier.
maybe it was just me.

do you believe in karma?


All along it was me.

today is ikea day! (:

3 person's share. ((:

this is how much alicia weigh after ikea. this is a happy weighing machine!

i wanna watch the ugly truth.

WET T seems sad, cheer up! (:

get well soon & we'll go there some other time k.

when you don't want it to happen, it will.

there are thousand words in my heart i wanna say, but i just can't put them into words.
i always thought this is what i wanted, but no, it's just not right.
now, i really don't know what i want.
but i definitely know for sure, what i do not want.

事情如果那么简单那就好了，
想让自己不见，
瞬间就统统消灭。

Dearest friend, will you sing the night with me?

its been 2 weeks since i last post, lol,
i'm just very lazy..
was supposed to work today but i took mc
because i couldnt find my voice. lol

yesterday was bazyqe's day! lol, cause it happened to be a thurs.
went to school in the afternoonto collect my F1 shirts and tag.
met damian at 12pm, but i was late, as usual. lol
went to eat yoshinoya student meal - salmon bowl
and chatted till ard 2pm plus.
went to tbp to send some email,
luckily wasn't seen by rm and bc. lol
went town to meet duck,head and ... nipple.
went to eat yoshinoya student meal - salmon bowl, again.
haha, but its nice so nvm. (now you know why i lost my voice) lol.
shopped ard and decided to go look for sotong @ clarke quay
because she was attached to whopper bar.
but when we reached, we realise they were having a private function. -.-
so slacked around and went home.


a recap of what happened during the past 2 weeks (if i can rmb)
-working,working,working
-kbox with sk.
-attachment @ HFC.
-working working working.
-F1 training.
-TopOne with anita & ellison.
-working.working.working.
-llzpf @ clarke quay
-movie G-force @ The Cathay!
-and last but not least, working working and working.
that should be all. no photos cause i'm lazy. haha.

okay, need to visit the polyclinic now.


dou shi wo de cuo.

My 6 days M3 was cut off, because i'm going to school tmr.. haha
anyway, still got many other days so no need to worry.



What goes around comes around. you'll regret.
and i was right, you were just a rebound.

My 1st out of 6 days of M3 shift.
travel tmr, wish me luck!


Some were your own decisions, some were what you didn't cherish.

"yin wei ni shi pei qi ma.. haha."

i hate it when the brain takes control, but it's worst when the heart does.

i'm gonna sleep early today, if i really can.
cause i was late for work today, oops. haha. around 5 to 10 mins la.
could'nt find my keys when i'm about to leave the house,
then when i'm walking to the LRT station, i realized i didn't
bring my ez-link card.=.=
didn't went back because i was already late, but i spent $5.20
on travel fare today. :( [not including the $1.00 deposit].
working 7am tmr, okay, SLEEP EARLY.
anw, john sent me this,

10 ways to know you love someone:

1. You talk with him/her late at night and still think of him/her when you go to bed.

2. You walk really slow when you are with him/her.

3. You don't feel okay when he/she is far away.

4. You smile when you hear his/her voice.

6. He/she is everything to what you think.

7. You smile everytime you look at him/her.

8. There's a person in your mind while you've been reading this.

9. You've been so busy thinking of that person you didn't notice that the no.5 was missing.

10. You are checking if that's true and you are silently laughing to yourself.


I think i've seen this somewhere, but i'll still fall for the trap. haha.
its easier to see the missing no.5 when reading from the computer, rather than
reading from the handphone.haha.

any of the symtoms above? congrats, you're in love.

wo xiang shi mei bei fan yue guo de yi ben shu.

trip cancelled, wouldn't have much difference anyway.
it might be better. but i would really want that bike ride. haha.

i was supposed to be in school at 8am, but i somehow,
woke up at 8am instead. haha.
reached at around 9.15am and rushed the last assignment.
finally, free from all these DSGs and IEPs, but, still stuck
with S&W. haha.
anw, went to united square to shop for xuan's bdae present.
i thought i would take some time to find the place but i was quite fast. (:
went home after that, had a few hours of beauty sleep and that's about it.
shall continue my beauty sleep.

you should have realized, you're a nobody.
pathetic.

edited.


happy birdy piggy day to alicia!
yay! she's 18th!
and well, bing xuan's birthday coming up.. 30th.
wonder what i should buy. i think i'll get a bike model.
okay, i'll need to work more to earn more!
and i'm already thinking about my F1 pay. hehe. ooops.

it was nice to sleep till 1pm, so shiok. haha.
working till 2am again today.
still have to rush project too, not forgetting the DSG CA to be continued on mon.
off i go, ......


cant help thinking too deep when i'm alone.

THE PROPOSAL

watched the proposal with dt at causeway point yesterday.

it's a nice, funny, romantic comedy.

Ryan Reynolds who is Andrew Paxton in the show is quite cute and handsome. (: HAHA.

Sandra Bullock is funny and pretty too.

wouldnt mind watching it again. haha.

but the ending wasnt "shiok" enough as me and dt concluded. HAHA

alright,i should get some sleep, working at 1730 later, till 2am.

"ROAR"



i wanted to shit so i posed an expression for the webcam before i did.



i am happy because i have been eating dinner at CCK for the past 2 days , and its so near my house! (:
HAHAHA..

School is...... chiong-ing project and assignments. I sure owe quite a number of DSG assignments.
& i think i'll have to go for make up lessons for S&W. MAKE UP LESSONS FOR S&W EH!!
suddenly wish i was in alicia's school, she like go sun tan also won't kana debarred for S&W de eh.

& looking at that blue-buttoned shirt in my cupboard makes me sad. :(


so wanna go sing.. (:

2 hours of school today, and i was late for 45 mins,

so it's 1 hour 15mins of school today.

and in school, aida is complaining i didn't blog about her so yea, this is it,

Siti Aida

This is Aida, she is my friend. She likes "THE TEETH", or should i say she likes to fight with me over "THE TEETH". haha, but i think she likes "THE FEET" too.. so greedy..

she always say Taufik is her husband, or boyfriend, but still want to fight with me over "THE TEETH".. She brings a camera wherever she goes, and likes to take pictures. She likes red i think, because her specs and watch is red. She was once blue-toothed. but i think she is someone who loves the country very much because she recently changed to the singapore flag. I think she likes it when people thinks she's chinese because that means she's fair.. that should be all..

IS THIS OK AIDA?

haha, anyway, went to Holland V for dinner today.. The spaghetti is very nice! yum yum! thanks yuwei for the intro, lol. The ice-cream yoghurt was nice too! its called Frolick i think.

would you take my hand and walk with me, friend?

had a very nice sleep till 11am plus today.
school starts at 3pm.
it was very saddening to see ppl walk the opposite direction when you're going to school
but then, the thought of bottle tree cheered me up!
bottle tree park!
very happy to see kuang siang, forgot when was the last time i saw him. haha.
it was nice, except for the very bad service. very expensive too.
shall look for some place cheaper next week, hopefully.
photosss should be up on facebook soon.




i wish i could cheer you up.
or rather,
i wish i did cheer you up. :)

ECP Day. :D

act formal, lol.

LOL, look at john's face. (blue guy)

LOL, look at my face, like shitting.

wanted to skate but gave up.

went to take photos with elise and hafiz, with hafiz's professional camera(dunno the name).

more photos should be up on facebook. :)

ate BBF for breakfast, oh well. haha.

went to meet dearest duck,bighead and pig.

walked around at lot1 and talk cock. lol.

tmr is bottle tree day! yay!

Dear friend, i owe you too much.

and i realised
all along, i was deceiving myself.
have you realised?

Finally, connection's back.

was supposed to some F1 training yesterday(i saw in my planner),
so i took off from work, but nobody like, emailed me or contacted me, so well,
rot at home for the whole day.
worst part was, the internet connection was down, so it was like,
sleep,
eat,
watch show,
roll on bed,
sleep,
eat,
watch show,
sleep.

such an exciting day.
anyway, the internet connection was fixed this morning but i'm going to work soon,
oh well.

OH YAH, im so looking forward to bottle tree park. :) HEE.

that's what im always using, Mr Webbook. (:

sometimes it gets so strong,
i feel like going all out,
and leaving everything else behind.










I feel so out of place,suddenly, everywhere.
its empty, like its always empty between my posts. ha.

I see four walls,

and there's no where to turn to.

but im glad its getting better.

pardon me,
i need some time, alone.

you don't seem to know me, enough.

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its time to take a break..

It seems that i lived to bring harm, pain, dissapointment and sadness to people.






history repeats,
yin wei wo bu shuo chu de ai, hai wo si qu le ni.
im ashamed.
i'll never learn.
and i'll never forgive myself.

web-by cam-my, lol.

lesson was from 8am to 10am today, i reached at 8.30am. haha, so it was a one and a half hour lesson, lol. muly was roam-ing about (as she said), so she acc me for lunch. Then she wanted to go to AMK ITE so we took the train and something happen.

Mr Random walked passed, stare at us with a surprised look, (i thought it was muly's friend) so i turned around and looked at muly, then,

Mul: You know him ah?

Me: lol, i tot he was your friend?

Then we both laugh, then Mr Random start to say wierd stuffs...~~

Mr R: I know her, she very pretty. (points at muly) LOL

Mr R: If i am policeman, i know her. (???)

Then the train came and we stood up to board the train,

Mr R and us entered from diff doors but he walked towards us and stare at muly, LOL again.

(by this time, many passengers were looking at us already.)

Muly was like trying to get away from him but he kept following her, and started...

Mr R: Auntie~~ Auntie~~ Auntie~~ (looking at muly) [HAHAHAHA..]

I quickly got off at the next station which was AMK MRT and muly waited for the "Doors Closing" to sound and when the doors was closing she faster came out. LOL. HAHA, muly looked so frightened, we took the next train after that, but we were still looking out to see if Mr R would be around, lol. hahaha.

Going for AYG appreciation dinner in the evening, heard that they would be giving FREE mascots - FRASIA, I bet aida would be playing with it's hair everyday, lol. I can imagine how high we would be if The "TEETH" is there too. or maybe The Feet? HAHAHA.

On a sad note, the dinner ends at 10pm, its at kallang, and i've got to wake up at 5.30am tmr. :(

bye, poo poo.

boo~

i kinda crushed my lala land, i'm sorry i crushed yours too.

I should have known that this was coming.
I should have controlled.
But i didnt regret so.
Because you made me know that it was worth it.

Received the letter about my attendance for S&W lessons, mum naaged abit but didnt say much after that, ha.
but i'll better go in future in case she de-bar me for NAFA test. lol.

went to GWC with BOH DP and MUL today, took a long time to settle down for food. Ate at some japanese restaurant in the end.

wet tissues, haha.

AYG has officially ended. and school has officially started too.

the last few days wasn't that bad for AYG after all. kinda miss "THE TEETH" lol.

I brought mum and CHERYL GOH PEI JIN to eat Kuishin-bo on sat, quite expensive but overall, worth it. Didnt took any pictures as i was TOO into my food, lol.

shopped around jurong point then went home.

Was working on Sun, and had to go down tiong after school yesterday and today as there were too many UNFINISHED things to be done. anyway, i would never complete everything as there will always be more things coming up.

School was fine for the 2 days, still continue crapping with friends in school, had a change of lifeskill teacher, nothing much else more.

I was browsing through all these and i couldnt take it anymore so i decided to post. LOL. haha.

BEFORE

AFTER

so is short hair or long hair better? haiz...

Its a very tiring day,
and i think its gonna be the same for the next 3 days.
im glad i have aida,
cheers me up and we just kept ourselves
entertained, with lots of drama, haha. smiles.


I kinda know changes are unavoidable
but it just makes me feels like
i'll have to fight for my oxygen to survive.
there will always be this point in time when i
know that times are hard
and i'll just have to solve the puzzle myself.
I just feel irritated by many small tiny things in life,
and at the end of the day it just gets worst.
i know things will not always turn out your way
but who doesnt hope for the best?
there are times, when i just cant focus
and it kind of breaks me down, but i'll still try hard to strive.
with everything going on,
i'm glad i took up many events to keep myself occupied.
and yea, since i can't change the environment to fit myself,
i'll just have to change myself to fit the environment.


you were just you, but you made her dissapointed.
but still, thanks yea.

Its gonna be another dead blog. haha, im just too lazy.

busy with school stuff lately.
ISS still on-going. last day tmr,
then i wont have to travel all the way to simei again. haha.
didnt work for the past few days and i felt more relaxed.
BUT i know i'll have to get back to reality soon.
many things undone and i dont wanna be the next target at the meeting.

upcoming would be Kallang Sports Fest and Asian Youth Games.
AYG is at bishan stadium, so i'll still have to pass by school during the holidays, damn.

recalling what i was doing for the past weeks,
it would be mostly school activities, attachment to HFC on the 14th, everything was ok. Then it was movie day at vivo city, Monsters vs Aliens. quite funny too. then on the 19th night, celebrated li qi's birthday at his brother pub.

That should be all, and i dont know when i'll post again. lol.

looks like everyone's not in good mood. I'll just have to struggle a smile.

Tired Out.

These few days have been quite packed actually,
with the pathetic few hours for beauty sleep.
Many things still left undone, too many things to remember, to do.
Project, work, events. i'll really have to learn to juggle, i guess.

Endure!, the only way to survive.
i'll not break down yet.

Back to reality, enough rubbish.

Class started at 3pm today, but i was late, again.
Anyway, i'll be late even if it starts at 5pm i think.

Had a test for design, but didnt have time to complete.
but we were allowed to complete it tmr.

Class ends at 5pm and i went to TB to meet hs for dinner.
DT came and we acc sk for break, went home after that.



its like the same things everyday. its going on and on. nothing interesting, and it's bored.
guess that's just it.